FIrEwOrKs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Bang_Ali]

Originally posted by aga_kha
woah man. dnt really know wat 2 say.

i thort i had it bad. i was proud of the 2 car crashes id been in and being in hospital for 2 months. damn!

Well everyone keeps saying that I have the bad luck, but when I think about it, I think I'm lucky in that at least I'm alive and almost in full working order (well I'll be as good as new very soon).

2 car crashes? Gosh someones going to have very high insurance premiums.

[aga_kha]

nah nah nah. i aint even old enuff to drive. i wasnt the driver. my dad was, n the second time my mum was. n b4 u asume nefing, the worst one was wen me dad was driving. was on a motorway n the car flipped over twice n hit a lorry. my mum came off worse-she had 2 b cut out. went 2 hospital but not for that long. so insurance premiums wont b that high will they.

i was in hosp for 2 months wen i was younger-but that was something different. o n i broke my leg quite recently too, the day after my mum went bangladesh-lol, but that all better now-just in time for my pe exam.

but still, i fink u had it hard. but like u say, ur lucky to b alive.

[Bang_Ali]

Originally posted by SNOOP_KUTHA
wow...so many accidents amongst a small bunch

ive neva been in a car accident or spent serious amounts of time in a hospital durin the years im grown enuff to understand wot went wrong...god willin i eva wont be in that situation...."unbreakable..wot u thought they called me mr glass?" ...urmm...i think i jus cursed myself, im gna be careful for the nex couple of weeks...u lot can come in visit me in london hospital tho if anyfing shud go rong...ill be da 1 attemptin to flirt wiv da nurses

i think u lot shud come wiv a health n safety warnin, i sure as hell aint gettin into any vehicles wiv u lot even if i have to walk 50 miles...ill be like "its cool, u lot take the car, i feel like walkin, even tho theres a tornado right behind me" joke

but its cool that u lot r here to tell the story, must make u appreciate fings more?

due to severe amnesia, i cant rememba, but from wot ive been told, wen i was younger i spent a few occasions in hospital, nearly died once...my nani allways reminds me "wen u was little, i visited u in da hospital everyday, n u still dont come around"

You misunderstand. Believe it or not, you're probably more safer sticking around me than away. It seems like I attract all the bad luck and divert it from other people around me. So I suppose I'm abit like Jesus in that I suffer for everyone elses mistakes.

Take the incident with the horse, the farmer was neglectful to let these young girls go out with those two horses. These beasts were huge and I don't see how those girls could've controlled them.

The teacher that knocked me down was driving too fast around a blind bend. When I was a baby I hurt my head because someone left me with a little kid to look after me and I got dropped. So it always seems that I take the grief for other peoples neglect.

But my closest brush with death came when I wanted to top myself. Thats the worst since if your intent on finishing yourself off then you need something very strong to drag you back from the edge. I know it sounds like quite drastic action to have thought of. I was going to slit my wrists and had the water and ice-cubes ready to do it.

In the end I didn't want to leave things unfinished and be seen to have ran away. Its something that I'm always thinking about, that people may think that I couldn't handle things and ran away. Its why I wrote a thread on the religion forum when I went into hospital to explain if I didn't come back.

Suicide is against all our natural survival instincts and for someone to be able to override them is a symptom of there being something seriously wrong.

I know all my evil relatives would have laughed about me for years to come, about how I couldn't handle life. I was only 16 at the time and remember having to deal with things that I wouldn't want to be thinking about now. I think as my life has been getting more comfy, my mind has been softening too.

To make matters worse I was on the verge of losing faith aswell. Basically I was a young kid and felt like my whole world had turned upside down. My life was well and truly screwed. Thankfully I took a 7 month trip to BD which sorted my mind out. For some reason, when I'm over there, all my troubles seem to dissappear.

Now I can't imagine that i was thinking about doing that back then. Its something that was very unpleasant and Ive not mentioned it to anybody ever, so your the first people.

Ive left it all behind, it was me as a confused teenager with no kind of support.

Its why I probably came on quite hard with Ms Bored for still carrying on with the self-harm. It was understandable as a teenager to have wanted to do that, but as a rational (well I try and be) adult it sounds quite silly to want to do that.

Its just not worth doing it to yourself. No matter how bad it is here, why punish yourself even more and get eternal damnation?

When you can think about it like that then life doesn't seem so bad. And once I wanted to give myself a chance, I soon realised how great life can be

[MaKe_iT_LEgAL]

ouch.

[Bang_Ali]

Originally posted by aga_kha
nah nah nah. i aint even old enuff to drive. i wasnt the driver. my dad was, n the second time my mum was. n b4 u asume nefing, the worst one was wen me dad was driving. was on a motorway n the car flipped over twice n hit a lorry. my mum came off worse-she had 2 b cut out. went 2 hospital but not for that long. so insurance premiums wont b that high will they.

i was in hosp for 2 months wen i was younger-but that was something different. o n i broke my leg quite recently too, the day after my mum went bangladesh-lol, but that all better now-just in time for my pe exam.

but still, i fink u had it hard. but like u say, ur lucky to b alive.

The human body is so fragile yet sometimes its amazing how you can survive incidents that you think would have surely finished you off. The weird thing with the horse was that as it kicked its legs up and snorted at me, I remember my legs feeling like they were stuck on the ground and I must have stopped breathing for a couple of seconds. I think my mind froze and went blank. For some reason I could see what was going on but seemed to not know what I was supposed to do. I know it makes me sound dumb, a horse is trying to stamp on you, what do you do?

My leap back was sort of a reflex action which got triggered when the horse made another neighing sound. The dumb horse should've stamped on me straight away, but it kept its hooves over my face for a couple of seconds giving me time. I suppose if you've lived in a large city/town, then its quite odd to hear about this countryside story.

Anyway I can't imagine what you mean when you say that your dads accident was worse than when your mum was driving, are you implying I was going to make a sexist comment?

What me? Never

[Bang_Ali]

Originally posted by MaKe_iT_LEgAL



ouch.

Well, not quite. I didn't do it in the end.

I can't believe I was that concerned about being thought of as a loser and a coward that couldn't handle life. The good that came out of it is I realised that I will one day die and I think that I understand the whole concept of death more fully.

I suppose I won't have much of a mid-life crisis, since I sort of had it when I was a teenager. It's why I fully accept myself and am totally comfortable with who I am.

And believe it or not, in real life (not on this forum) I'm more nicer to some people if I think they're having a difficult time in life and it wasn't their fault. The other side is that if I see someone bringing it on themselves, I can turn off any sympathy I may have otherwise had for them (which makes some people think I'm heartless). But the way I see it is that if you bring it on yourself, then you really can't expect anyones sympathy, if you get it then thats something you should appreciate, but not expect as some sort of right.

[Bang_Ali]

Originally posted by Ms-Bored
If i was in hospital, i dont think i would want any visitors coming to visit me... i wouldnt want them to go out of there reach and leave what they normally do and come and sit with me for half an hour... i think its a waste of time!

so i've thought about it if im in hosp having a baby or someting i would rather recouperate by my self...

i may sound a bit horrible but i dont like ppl fussing over me and pretending to be sad or somefin!!

Ms. Bored
x x x x x

No theres nothing wrong with that. When I went into hospital, I clearly told my mother to not come to visit. I was really tactfull and did my best to avoid upsetting her. Initially I was just going to go and have the surgery done first and then tell them. Unfortunately my older sister couldn't keep her mouth shut and told.

I knew that my mother would be praying for me while I was in hospital and its something I'm not too keen on. I'd rather recover through my own luck and the expertise of my surgeon. At the end of the day, whatever happens will happen, I just did my best to make sure i was in good shape for the op.

As they say the rest is recent history.